my unblessed head

i can't sleep
my head is stuffed with stuffs i dont know what and i caused it
i'm stupid and getting more stupid

i imagine things intertwined between me and a person
THINGS
body parts, i mean. how laughable the idea is............................................. eww

i imagine ghosts
oh at least it isnt eating me

the last i imagine
is.
still in my mind


OH PLEASE CAN I SLEEP SAFE AND SOUND NOWWWWWW
GOD BLESS ME

(c) Tessa, 29 January, 2009

what a fool i am

a little sharp enclosure to my life then you will see how fragile things are within

i never know how to wrap up and throw my pride
the game is about vanity, i'm the winner but i'm the coward

tell you my truth, my vomit is hardening, churning hard on the edge of my mouth
can't take it back, it's glued hard
rooted to the spot, i can't only scream of pain and agony, the vomit is eating me

i guess i would never know what to cut the wall between
my brain.
my mouth.
and my heart.

by all the means of sorry,
heart comes the last. brain comes the first.
when would the subtle silky knife reach the bottom?

is it even possible?


I NEED HELP.

(c) Tessa, 27 January, 2009

>> so loved the world

nah.. this is my crappy sort-of-poem-album-site.. the contents here are just my poems and stories. thx to blogskins n kriss for the nice layout ;).

>> walk in the light

lil' princess..
named tessa
14 years old
live in jakarta,
part of indonesia
a 10th grader at SMAK 1 PENABUR.

>> undying love

macbook!
HTC touch diamond
THIS and THIS dresses
that brettele sandals
and.. this tote bag :P.

>> old thoughts

February 2006
March 2006
July 2006
January 2007
September 2007
January 2008
February 2008
April 2008
June 2008
September 2008
October 2008
January 2009
February 2009
June 2009
January 2010
February 2010
March 2011

>> all for us

I'm a lot to handle
You don't know trouble but I'm a hell of a scandal
Me I'm a scene I'm a drama queen
I'm the best damn thing that your eyes have ever seen
The Best Damn Thing - Avril Lavigne

>> running after

>> how great is

my blog
my friendster acc.
my msn space
putri's story-album
HP FanFic site

>> stand before You now

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