gruesome tireness :(

i had a bad day,
i take a gulp down,
i sang a sad song,
:(


am i completely wasting my time out in this love game? am i completely moved on from my past with him? do i can save my time, money, and energy enough for my own days, my own well being? am i capable enough to live my life not so lazy unlike these days?
who asks me am i well enough to face today? am i worth enough to receive so many love without any questions like this? do they people ever wonder that i was lying? why are there a reason behind every crumble of trouble? what's growing up, when i know i am mature enough to face my upcoming challenges? how is this unmoving parallel of his love could be moved away to someone else's grace? when will he goes forth and determine enough to date me? what's behind these freaking reasons of so-called-lie ability? why cant i be myself like before? when will these out of blue rapid of school's nightmares stop? when can i handle my financial thingy myself? when can i save my moneys for the better usage? can i stop the entire universe and roll back?

why there are so many questions?
oh please dont say to me that i am being one-so-emo-teenager. ahh, life just little forth and lots more back.

(c) Tessa, 25 February, 2008

h-o-p-e-LESS

mati.

si akar:
smukie. pagar makan tanaman. finansial. mati. mati. cengeng.

(c) Tessa, 08 February, 2008

>> so loved the world

nah.. this is my crappy sort-of-poem-album-site.. the contents here are just my poems and stories. thx to blogskins n kriss for the nice layout ;).

>> walk in the light

lil' princess..
named tessa
14 years old
live in jakarta,
part of indonesia
a 10th grader at SMAK 1 PENABUR.

>> undying love

macbook!
HTC touch diamond
THIS and THIS dresses
that brettele sandals
and.. this tote bag :P.

>> old thoughts

February 2006
March 2006
July 2006
January 2007
September 2007
January 2008
February 2008
April 2008
June 2008
September 2008
October 2008
January 2009
February 2009
June 2009
January 2010
February 2010
March 2011

>> all for us

I'm a lot to handle
You don't know trouble but I'm a hell of a scandal
Me I'm a scene I'm a drama queen
I'm the best damn thing that your eyes have ever seen
The Best Damn Thing - Avril Lavigne

>> running after

>> how great is

my blog
my friendster acc.
my msn space
putri's story-album
HP FanFic site

>> stand before You now

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