pronounce happiness

Say good bye to sadness no more hearts to splatter
YEAY
I'm at the peak don't you know
Don't care about the past no more

Meet me at the dawn line
Poppin bottles sippin' cosmos
Cuddlin' my sugar
Ain't no need to show you how I roll no more

Thank you pals friends foes best friends
Favorably I know the peak I will never reach without your extending hands
Thru the days of long gone sadness here I sail

And no you can't do it like me ;)

(c) Tessa, 27 March, 2011

happy valentine's day 2010 [edited]

Before you start, I suggest you to read THIS
That's still very true.

Still dedicated to the same person since last year. Though this year, you mean so much more to me. Shed your tears with me.

We've shared life roller coaster for years
Years that passed not for nothing
So content the memories so hard to be erased
Happy, terrible, satisfying, whatever adjectives you put there you can line a connection


Truthfully it will be tragically hard for me to be able to let you go
You're my candy on a bad day
You're the shooting star I cast my wish upon
Silly, I know. I make dreams that only a child can put reality upon


Remember the time we went as free as the flying birds
Now put a smile on your face cause that's what I'm going to tell tale now
At the memory when even once upon a time sounds too unhappy


Let me bring you the memory in front of Monami!
I was craving to meet you like crazy, see my efforts honey?
And you kissed me! Light and quick as it was
Flattering my crave, I tell you. My knees went weak after your quickie.
As shy lovebirds any crowds would see


Fly me to Polaris even if our Polaris is only a florist :')
5 blooming tulips and a white rose never seem too easy to be forgotten
From a pink rose to a lightning speed bath on last year valentine's day
Flawless.


As I lay dying of love on your lap
Looking into your chin
And I was crying for you then you soothed me even though we're going to a party. Do you remember?
Then you said you've had no girl before crying for you because they loved you.


I could tell 1001 tales of happiness we've shared
But I'm sure I've done damages words can't repair, you don't have to know my regrets I swear
My life's changed after what I've lost in between
I know I only deserve something after a penitence
I'm terribly sorry I'm ugly I made mistakes
I just can hope you will forgive and forget it in time and let it not tarnish our memory
And I'm willingly to show you I've changed right now, right here
Take me with you fully and I'll try never to let you down I promise


Cause there are a world much more than beautiful words between us
We know we deserve each other at our best


I can't forget how everytime I ask the stars
I wish I could know what's in your mind
I wanna tell you I miss your kisses I miss your warmness I can miss everything about you
Even when you're mad at me or I'm angry at you
Yet I'm afraid, of the just-adequate reply I might get


As the poetry I've written for you a year ago went
The feeling is still the same
Happy valentine's day the second we've spent. This year, this is a piece that's unheard from me. And I'm grateful I can finally share it with you.

(c) Tessa, 21 February, 2010

TELL ME ONE DAY WHEN I DESERVE YOU TO BE MINE
I dunno if I can wait
but I'm still looking forward to meet you everyday
but I dunno if u feel the same way
TEEEEELLL MEEE SOMETHING YOU FEEL ABOUT MEEEEE, AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

(c) Tessa,

:')

I dream one day you would write you would tweet about me
Of the kisses of the amazing memories
A favor that will make my day unbearably
Happy

Tell you I love you yet you say thank you
I guess I'm not doing any service for you
Cos love comes from within
The bottom of my heart
Why don't you say you love me too... if you really do

Hey, you oughtta stop making my heart spinning
Your lack of emotions tortures within
I'm not giving up but I need spirit to get up
And you were the best mood booster I've ever had
If ever I have the better

I miss you I want you I need you
Say it one more time, but please be it comes from within
I've done almost my utmost to be with you
Though I made mistakes and some were beyond repair

I want to be needed. I don't want to be lonely.

(c) Tessa,

i havent updated for a long while

happy new year 2010!
my profile is still 14 yrs old, whereas im already 16 now! time flies.

in 2010 we celebrate a decade after the new century, and so it means, everything can change. future may be brighter. yet we must still hold on our local wisdom. be far-sighted, cos we dont know what the future awaits for us.

lately i cant sleep well ive been wasting my days thinking about someone who isnt so willingly wasting his time on me and yet i couldnt help my mind wanders off him :(. he's been the object of my writings here for the last year and reading this blog again reminds me of the happiness he has been bringing, from the up and downs, the smoothness and roughness, and so content it was to be seen

in my prayer i ask God so that He can lift him up to His shoulder, braving the highest mountain of obstacles, reaching the skyhigh ambitions he's after. forgive me cos i can only pray

i know youre shattered but dont be cos the next days will be the 'it' days of your life, when you can make a big and true difference to your heart and make just ANYONE to believe in what you can do. im your biggest fan in believing your capability in these stuffs :)

it doesnt hurt to write this... you know why? cos talking positively about you draws a rainbow curve to my face that is generated truly from the heart instead of standing in a pole that lights a path to your life

if you wanna seek some (well, just refer it as "guilty" cos u dont want that) comfort, im open for ANY kind of help :)))

(c) Tessa, 04 January, 2010

we have not even married

but we don't have time for each other.

(c) Tessa, 21 June, 2009

Dedicated to my delicate hunny :)

i dont want to share the taste of your kisses because it makes me shiver/i dont want to share the taste of your kisses because i dont want people to want you too

i only want you to be mine my possession my lover my kisser my chef my man my sunshine my panda my acquadigio my 212sexy my valentine my everything my all ;)

i need you baby/i miss your irresistible hotness now/cant explain it/i just love everything about you

happy valentine's day/this is a piece of my satisfaction :)

(c) Tessa, 14 February, 2009

my unblessed head

i can't sleep
my head is stuffed with stuffs i dont know what and i caused it
i'm stupid and getting more stupid

i imagine things intertwined between me and a person
THINGS
body parts, i mean. how laughable the idea is............................................. eww

i imagine ghosts
oh at least it isnt eating me

the last i imagine
is.
still in my mind


OH PLEASE CAN I SLEEP SAFE AND SOUND NOWWWWWW
GOD BLESS ME

(c) Tessa, 29 January, 2009

what a fool i am

a little sharp enclosure to my life then you will see how fragile things are within

i never know how to wrap up and throw my pride
the game is about vanity, i'm the winner but i'm the coward

tell you my truth, my vomit is hardening, churning hard on the edge of my mouth
can't take it back, it's glued hard
rooted to the spot, i can't only scream of pain and agony, the vomit is eating me

i guess i would never know what to cut the wall between
my brain.
my mouth.
and my heart.

by all the means of sorry,
heart comes the last. brain comes the first.
when would the subtle silky knife reach the bottom?

is it even possible?


I NEED HELP.

(c) Tessa, 27 January, 2009

its been almost a month. since the crisis of trust.

now it's crisis of scores. its hard to leave you. hard hunny.
but i think we should move on and fix up our lives. or its only me perhaps.

(c) Tessa, 16 October, 2008

>> so loved the world

nah.. this is my crappy sort-of-poem-album-site.. the contents here are just my poems and stories. thx to blogskins n kriss for the nice layout ;).

>> walk in the light

lil' princess..
named tessa
14 years old
live in jakarta,
part of indonesia
a 10th grader at SMAK 1 PENABUR.

>> undying love

macbook!
HTC touch diamond
THIS and THIS dresses
that brettele sandals
and.. this tote bag :P.

>> old thoughts

February 2006
March 2006
July 2006
January 2007
September 2007
January 2008
February 2008
April 2008
June 2008
September 2008
October 2008
January 2009
February 2009
June 2009
January 2010
February 2010
March 2011

>> all for us

I'm a lot to handle
You don't know trouble but I'm a hell of a scandal
Me I'm a scene I'm a drama queen
I'm the best damn thing that your eyes have ever seen
The Best Damn Thing - Avril Lavigne

>> running after

>> how great is

my blog
my friendster acc.
my msn space
putri's story-album
HP FanFic site

>> stand before You now

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